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Oh what a rotten child
I won't realize what I've been saying letting free reign to the eciton on my love playing and where's that left you now?
I've upset everyone I loved, a student failed again but now inside this way I'm here for
And though that, I won't start from scratch
the push you gave won't go to waste I feel it still move my past in view to be for a paved way
Though I'm trying, it's not so easy
I get stuck inside my head
all the friends that I made in there tell it's time to choose my way
You're there too, I felt you there
So for that I learn to believe
a blessing thought and then delivered from above inside why, I don't have a clue
I'll see you
I need pain
some to function right
I am a part of human life life brings us such comfort and death oh man I love her
Though I'm scared to say a thing to stay I've made a mess that way and now I've got to clean this up with all the love I should've said
I didn't know what to do I made mistakes the whole way through I turned my back for hate and waste I can't believe I stayed that way
Now I'm proving that I can, I always tried without my hands I thought it was the way to be for god inside this game that we all play
I know I can't be fixed up every way I've got to work not play but while I'm young and have my love I wanna use it in a nice way
Now now
I've been here for it daily
waiting for you to keep my love in place to fake as I can
right though I can't be
to belong nowhere
until this break of day
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Speak now
it's time to spiral out
confusion feeding doubt
I need a blanket on the past behind me
go to rest, arrest my trespassing ghost which seeks to prove it's host the most infested of the parts inside me
hate the words I gave the speaking details
so clearly sick and sad and mad must've wanted failure
I cheapen it, quiet down, gross me out
I'm sick of crying out, but it's true I wanna die so often
So there's a problem here
one I can't explain
though a wave of pleasure comes it's not without pain
See now
it's a wooden womb and aged and haunted room corners appear to move to prove they can do
to you a moments there a feeling brings slight scare is reeling until dives into you makes a quick move
won't stop until it shows what we are
I constantly was yelling just to prove that they are there
I don't care what it did to my human humiliate my person, somehow it felt important
So there's a problem here
one I can't explain
though a wave of pleasure comes it's found bearing pain
You give me rise when I've fallen and I can't get up
You give me love when I don't know what to do, what's my own?
I don't know what to do when I wake up to my awful sound
and I don't know if it's you holding my head down I'm humble now give me riot can we riot yeah it's bound to go bad
give me riot can we riot yeah we riot bound to go
To be now
is to sit and stare
is to become aware to what's in there and passively witness flow
I've no mind that I want to prove
I've got to find the move that I can do to make the fuller dream true
I've no clue what I am here for
but clearly must be something cause I cannot sit still I've never done well what it is to be right I only wanna chase light though from here it's still a far sight
so there's been a problem here one I can't explain
though waves of pleasure come there found bearing pain
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sound by sails
choose what you're here for
up or down it's so clear
all around here your time goes back
to painting shame
a lover's wane
but what I learned from you was not to hide pain
your cloud can love it, you can rise above it
inviting anyone if you feel like it's public
so you wanna sit and think or you feel a smoke get your hopes up like you're special cause you know all about it
all these songs wrote touch it so much new things and stuff let me tell you about this girl I've fallen in love with but first
there's a special feel between this kid and me
he always wants me to see how he's playing
he plays alone as well as he would with other kids cause no matter what there're all these people watching him
great I sees it but I move for no one yet I do such things for someone give a path to have to climb for what have you given your mind for greet at last a bitter season
comes to build the epitome does it cry you whisper in ear
when I go outside I can see it in your eyes you're surprised by what we could be
we could make so much together love so much forever make everything better when you finally met her
and you'll know just what she is she's just a miracle for little kids
playing games the whole day you wanna sing along and make you write a song and tell her how you are
there's a special feel between this kid and me he always wants me to see how he's playing he plays alone as well as he would with other kids cause no matter what there're all these people watching him
they're saying 'hey you wanna grow up wiser? rise up, time to see the sky so you find her, I'm her, try and look around, go and make a sound, everywhere you look I bet you're seeing her around now'

keep your tabs on the problematics
sticking sad kids to this magic jesuita
new flowers met her to exert times to create weather
inside a mind so single to me but if what's been said is to be
will I be lost? what will it bring? thinking of it's hallow, it's me crushing a dream
will I be lost when I grow old? an endless blank future taunts me what will it hold? continue where to held back truth I'm for you then no use and for what god use me spine forfeit no reason this pointlessness treason, my feet fail me can't find stability forcing it into me
new kid new eyes
run for it
prepare silence
clearing it out
opening doors for you to explore never return (now there is a path but) endless exist so I can escape
though where can I go?
I've never left this home so sad
be well
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it's too late to say sorry I ran away
sorry I've been that way but there's no time to waste
I'm late as can be
I've failed you and me
that's what I have been for so long I know nothing at all
it's too late to say about how I'm ashamed
all the things I have blamed when they brought no real pain you help me to see the blank side of me
I find it's all been so wrong I know nothing at all
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living ways of suffering looks at me
says I can see right through you
as you crumple up such gifts of love have I never thought of then you go all to use such sorrow
all to rape such spirits
never earned a second
so you die for it
there is one there that bleeds us despite anything and you can use it to be whatever thing
find a thing to be sad for gladly
don't know how to be for anything
got to turn to love for everything all to see and all to be, madly
what have I been through the door? what have I been through that door?
delivered mind so quick
(too quick) not quick enough for me
let breathe seething lie, no you can't
beat in mind, you're fried
how have you died? so little time to beat me
no surprise (woo)
I've been wondering this whole time won't see this mess
I've catered to so long
now you've heard my songs
so I run back to take more cover from it gotta hold back to keep my lover from it want to keep her she gives peace, relief

gotta leave a body for a minute
when I stay it too long I get wrapped up in it and I just want to see her be happy
I know I can't be anymore
I know I can't be that anymore
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so enticed to see this wandering eye, it's so old
it's not so I can see through what you mean
how can a cut through fog be anything but still a dream? nothing seen must've been for us to be
stay in aligned
I just want to run for you if you can grant me time for love I see your eyes shine bright with mine flow out inside your pupils grow out
death of a sign precedes his day
and it grows to be less empty to something you'd be proud of me
never to see what it will be I will follow this
oh in time he'll see his haunting place
for a real time has gone to waste
in your mind you feel this bitter taste
oh for what has been used up done before me with no will, I force it
a full moon has it's meal
given through a sine
I can find your message clearly I messed your time up
do just what you choose to
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Leave him there for time will pass slow
don't start thinking too hard just go on be you
Someone loves you, yeah you know it well they want to get to know you now there is time
I look back further hoping for some type of common thread used through so many men
A mother cries at night over her sleeping child grow
I hope you use me well
I look back for a way to go I can not always be here
though I love you like my daughter, I can't wait to see you grow up
and if the past that I captured is just for growth then I'll take it without a care in the world I'm just sorry I let it hurt you
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Breathe now
come on out
I followed it just to keep my spirit light
better not to hide behind pride
takes more strength but it shows yah
and you know I got such love for you but before we do what we do I gotta earn it for myself
easier said than done, though to me it's easy to love your whole being
so why is it like that? so much opposites I can do nothing to prevent it so I
sit around and let the cards fall down I said I sit around and let the cards fall down
I know who is like me, unfortunately it's everybody, we're so young and now it's done time for love found a body for love I said it's time for love find a body body for love
wants to sing now to try to get more than what's just here and hour need to take a step away to make more pays to soothe this sour doubt is paired with certainty I can not see to speak for ours
now to claim a space to hold yourself up in the face of power
I'm knowing it, I'm fighting it, I'll travel eyes that eat him holy wanna die I feel it slowly, wanna die I feel it on me
oh I want a day to feel him in the die which keeps him loving
can not claim a space for anything just need such sweet relief
you tell me that I'm not like you
I'm not, no one is with me I'm still stuck in that tree I began in

it's like a whole planet, no hand in it, I can create my own empowerment won't sour it this time
fuck my life I'm alive, say I'm fine, it's alright, I'm alright
over and over again, I know I learn
gotta get more loving to yourself for yourself
I got no face I live it as a blank slate
anything I like and what you hear is what I ate, alright?
gotta get more loving to yourself for yourself
fuck shame fuck my face fuck my race fuck this place fucking waste I make haste for my space to come out
gotta get more loving to yourself for yourself
born of it but I'll learn from it
I want to sit and think for hours
nothing but your time to stop nothing but your mind will haunt you as sunrise will bring tomorrow, surely ends will come to sorrow
if it's used all to glue to self to what you do want to do
I do know that, pathetic past, cut love in half for nothing but a
base to grow from despite awesome love that is there for you always though to sit and wait too long you'll find yourself in sad song
and not enough time ever will pass for your love to come at last
come on give yourself some love, the sun beats down then you sweat then you're thirsty come now, give dren a bite, he wants to learn he's seen it
I've been there before, I want that time to spread so I've been there before, what can I do? fuck yeah
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As you wake it fades away
those who come to build a mind
and what's made for it will stay, it's in line to
and I've made to pay a few inwardly to be stuck in a free fall and I feel this wane with you it feels round
all to bring to focus
the way in which we play
you show your fear of forward
well we need to anyway
never does a move to get better go away
to say that it is pointless is the mistake we made
and a fractured light comes down
every time this cycle starts
the first time you lost your mind stars aligned
and for what you are alone winter's sorrow soothed by minds which do know to be for truth now for you
here I want your body alone
let it build on you all on your own
following home again now this time is clear
don't let what is here hiding clearly underneath certainty a clouded doubt get you down and out
fight it, duh
oh mind? a body? it's a place for me to see
peak in a window, there's no suffering for me
in minds of progress, I don't care, I'm here for me dancing so lightly just a portion of your soul
and still I am feeling pain constantly
I can see that in that I've no choice it's a way for me to be don't be fearful for me pain is a friend to us
oh bleed me
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don't know how to raise so we can wave it something in my soul has got to keep it up I see the future when you lay it
keep me in a state so you can see it
all times stay round
don't know how to raise so we can wave it
eyes that work together that can love and heal us been there in the past and through a dream I feel it get inside a state so you can be it
all times stay round
a waves crash will repeat will repeat oh balance adds weight to it
water flows clear through you
wanna be your brother but a god won't let us flowing out my open mouth and you back at me if we're tall enough than we can choose it to be

strong enough to make our spirits happy with us all can be one
find what you can do so you can raise it
nothing can be you except for you so do it
if it's love you want then man you got it from me no one that I know is really like you at all
find your way now
a waves crash will repeat will repeat
oh organizing it within you I can feel you holding me together love is one forever now
can't wait for this lover of mine well I'm almost through but I want more time
it moves fast like a day is a week and my death precedes all the life that we meet and I'm not sure if I fake it or not well at least I feel good half the time
pain is not such a big deal but I'm always in fear of hellish spiral
hey you, break it down
I feel it in your mouth
I see to ride the path
I bleed you, live in cycles
live, run in cycles
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your pain is false I know you brought me to your home the way you came won't die soft drift into your own
a time for a change, will guided fate your end comes near and for it shatter ends to make a boy a man
and there's all of it left to be
let go from holding on and end your suffering
somewhere there's a one that's real who's honest in his man
somewhere there's a truth still covered though we can't understand
there's a time that cry lives there's a time that cry dies there's a time there's a time to be shamed to be shamed to be shamed in the lights that you craved for escape
(somewhere there's a long uncovered lens which needs rise to bleed to the skies somewhere the lies that you fed to it can see a clear way why
somehow in a way that you hid from you a broken wish to die
inside that I can see you wanting to be free, it is all fine)
for your loves feigned ways has brought you everything

I don't want anymore to be here at such doors and I stay here alive for waiting
I stay for a time
where I'll be there alive for waiting
I want to be blind for you
(for your love's paintings start not to be for you they are made not for selfish endeavors
been ways to feel it looking up at you
and crying for your place
you become so disgraced she begs to fix it
you cry out
her sadness
she threatens her leaving
start to change everything that you know how but can't change the past and you say to her)
it's what is telling me not to
I want to be blind for you is what's telling me not to
I want to be blind for you is what's telling me not to
I closed my eyes to realize what I saw so wrong before
I gave you my heart's what I thought but betrayed everyone
she said you broke my heart and now you can't say anything I hid myself under you from fear of what's my own
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this album is about childhood and i first had the idea for it and wrote the first songs for it about two years ago. i’m happy that i’ve made it and it was cathartic to do. thanks for being on this webpage.
Joseph thanks: my family, my friends, god, love, fear, classics, desu senpai, you, the sun, children, hoosier courts nursery school, the color wheel, soup, craigslist, the ghost of my grandparents, bicycle playing cards, wine, christmas time, life and death, teachers, and the force of music
Will thanks: Sarah Graves, Ethan Miller, Walter Everton, John Gordon, Michael McReynolds, Nick Collado, Ty Denstorff, Custodians. The Cast of Scrubs
released January 28, 2017
personnel:
Joseph Komari - vocals, pianos, guitars, bass, aux percussion, keyboards
Daniel Versweyveld - drum set
William Chen - engineer, production
Sharif Ibrahim - double bass on Orange Flourish, Spirit and Play
Paul Mortilla - pipe organ on Orange Flourish
Nathan Clark - synthesizer on New Kid Eyes
